Anxiety is like perpetually hearing the boss/enemy music but never seeing the threat.
This is the best description I’ve ever heard.
Author: Sephira
Born and raised primarily in Northern Virginia, my family and I moved to North Carolina in 2006. Married for over 20 years, my husband and I have two boys and a gaggle of cats.
For me, writing is a great stress reliever. I can let my mind wander and let my emotions run free in a way that is generally not possible in my normal everyday life. My writings run the gamut in terms of style and genre – for instance my first novel is a historical romance set in the Civil War, but some of the other things I have in the works are fantasy or thrillers, among other things.
It probably goes without saying, but my poetry is somewhat eclectic in nature, and again while some may feel the need to stick with a particular form, I tend to write just whatever comes to mind. Let the winds of inspiration lead me on…
I’m always interested in comments and feedback. So please feel free to share your thoughts with me!
S I G Y N “G O D D E S S O F F I D E L I T Y ; from her birth until her death” |Listen|
i. you’ll be queen one day – ramin djawadi | ii. once upon a dream – lana del rey | iii.love is blindness – jack white | iv. young and beautiful – lana del rey | v. bedroom hymns – florence + the machine | vi. if i had a heart – fever ray | vii. the rains of castemer – sigur rós | viii. sending the earl to valhalla – trevor moriss | ix. he is lost – ramin djawadi |
Younger Adults With Alzheimer’s Are Key To Drug Search
Literally forgot that I hadn’t finished this. -.-;
Here, have Loki and Sigyn, apparently in some bizarre AU where they’re happy and giggly.
As AU as it gets
What is Co-Dependency
Codependency is an unhealthy form of love. It is where my need to take care of you compromises or harms my quality of life. Although it’s usually seen in romantic partnerships, it can occur in any relationship, including family, friends or peers. Characteristics of codependency include:
1. I feel good about myself when you like and approve of me.
2. Your problems and concerns disturb my peace of mind.
3. A lot of my mental energy is focused on helping and rescuing you (either solving your problems or relieving your pain).
4. A lot of my mental energy is diverted into protecting you.
5. I spend a lot of time and energy trying to get you to do it my way (ie. Being manipulative).
6. My self-esteem is boosted by solving your problems or helping to relieve your pain.
7. I set aside my own interests, hobbies and goals as I’d rather spend my time doing what interests you.
8. I feel how you look, how you behave, and what you achieve (or do not achieve) reflects on me – and is a judgment of me.
9. I’ve lost touch with feelings as I’m totally consumed with how you feel, and how your feelings are changing.
10. I don’t really know what I want any more – as I’m so wrapped up in you, and what you want.
11. The hopes and dreams for the future are all tied to you.
12. My fear of rejection or abandonment by you determines how I act and what I say.
13. My fear of upsetting or making you mad determines how I act and what I say.
14. I use giving as a way to feel safe and secure in my relationship with you.
15. My friends and social circle gets smaller and smaller as I involve myself more and more with you.
16. I value your opinions more than my own opinions, and am willing to sacrifice my personal values to be accepted and valued by you.
30 Days of Devotion (Sigyn)
XXVII. Worst misconception about this deity that you have encountered
I don’t know how prevalent it is, but I’ve found several posts on tumblr responding to the idea that Sigyn only stays with Loki in the Cave because She’s a battered / abused wife. I’m not even quite sure who started this idea, but I think certain fundamentalist / extreme Asatruar are the ones typically referenced. I think it’s the only way they can conceive of a Deity wanting to associate with Loki, and lessen His punishment in the Cave, but I can’t say this with 100% certainty.
Without knowing why someone has made this claim, I can only put forth potential responses.
If they have an issue with Sigyn primarily being a housewife and raising Narvi and Vali, as opposed to being a Warrior Deity like Freya (for example), I’m not sure how they’d react to motherhood in general. Frigga raised Her children and is associated with household duties, but I’ve never heard of anyone trying to say She’s a battered / abused wife.
If they have an issue with Sigyn being married to Loki, there’s only so much I can say to help them out on this. Sigyn and Loki love each Other and made the decision to get married. Loki speaks hard truths that No One will, and He’s associated with keeping events from stagnating (chaos or being a Trickster), but that does not mean He’s abusive. I’ve honestly never heard of anyone having UPG in which Loki’s abusive to Sigyn (or Anyone else He’s associated with), so I can only assume there’s some issue with Loki Himself at the center of this misconception.
Loki doesn’t threaten Sigyn into staying in the Cave, and She chooses to stay there and hold the bowl out of love for Him. I’m honestly not sure if a battered / abused wife would stay and do that, since Loki has been restrained to the point that He cannot leave the Cave and wouldn’t be able to force Anyone to stay with Him. It would be the ideal time to leave an abusive partner, but I can only speculate to a certain degree since I have no experience with domestic abuse. The idea still doesn’t seem to fit with anything that followers of Sigyn and/or Loki have shared regarding holding the bowl and how They feel for each other.
Think for a second
Imagine with me.
You’re an athlete. You’re gearing up to run the next 5k in your town.
You get there, and your number’s on your chest just like everyone else. You’re at the starting line, just like everyone else.
Bam, off goes the start signal.
Suddenly, you feel a little funny. Everyone else around you is gaining a lead they shouldn’t otherwise gain. Even the little old lady who does this for fun is now almost 50 feet in front of you.
But you keep pushing, right? You’re bound to catch back up, you’re an ATHLETE.
You pump as much of your strength as you can into your legs. You’re using what feels like every ounce of effort you have in you to just get your legs moving. All the while, that lead that everyone has on you is getting bigger and bigger…
People are suddenly farther and farther away…
You keep going You have no choice. You’ve GOT to finish. And you do.
But that’s when you collapse from exhaustion. Everyone around you is looking at you now, very concerned, wondering what could possibly have gone wrong, you were fine yesterday. You looked fine even the whole time you were running! What could POSSIBLY have happened?!
You can fill in the blanks with any invisible malady you like: heart problems, asthma, fibromyalgia, sciatica, what have you. But it’s SOMETHING that nobody can see. It’s something even YOU didn’t see.
Welcome to mental illness.
EVERY DAY is that 5k. Waking up in the morning is the start signal going off, and no matter how much energy we could put into something as simple as making breakfast, suddenly everyone else around us has their day’s tasks half way done and we’re still standing in the kitchen choosing eggs or bacon as though our lives depended on it. And sometimes, it does.
Eating is a chore. Standing up is basically like asking us to climb a mountain. Taking care of ourselves is tiring. Let alone taking care of someone else, if we need to.
That collapse at the finish line of the day could be a panic attack, it could be a fit of tears, it could be the mounting and exploding feeling that you’re a failure, you’re worthless, why do you even bother. It could even be an angry and persistent suggestion that you should just kill yourself so you’re not wasting space.
And let’s not forget, we didn’t do this to ourselves. We couldn’t have predicted this, we aren’t just sitting there asking for people to pamper us, in fact sometimes that makes us feel WORSE.
And at the end of the day, quite possibly the best thing you could do is hold us, tell us it’ll be okay, and just listen.
Most often, there’s no rhyme or reason to our thoughts. I was a straight A student for a long time and if I got less than 80% on ONE test, I flipped out and resigned myself to failure. But anyone else would’ve been like ‘Sweet, I passed!’ People tell me I’m doing well at work, and I’ll just focus on that one mistake I made two weeks ago and oh well, I’ll get fired tomorrow.
We DO NOT DO THIS ON PURPOSE. And it’s not as easy as saying ‘Oh just stop being so hard on yourself.’ That’d be like asking your athlete self to just grow some new lungs/muscles/heart valves and you’ll be fine.
We know you want to help. ❤ And most of us appreciate it SO MUCH, OMG THANK YOU. But sometimes, cuddles, blanket forts and movie binges are enough to keep us going. We don’t need to talk or reason things out all the time.
Sigyn, bride of Loki. Goddess of loyalty and forgiveness. Lives with Loki in his subterranean dungeon collecting the venom that drips into his eyes. Some myths say that when Sigyn goes to the river to empty the bowl she holds over him the venom drips into Loki’s eyes and causes him to scream in his agony and it is from his screams that causes earthquakes.
Understanding Adhd
There’s a lot to adhd that most people don’t realize. While attention issues and hyperactivity are well-known, the majority of people don’t know most of the symptoms. Here is a partial list.
-Poor motor skills
-Delayed physical and social development
-having a “multi-track” style of thinking
-Forms of disordered thinking, including blocking, circumstantiality, clanging, derailment, pressure of speech, tangentiality, and more.
-Hyperfocus
-Fidgeting
-Restless leg syndrome
-Forgetfulness
-Poor concept of time passage
-Overactive metabolism
-Sensory processing issues
-Meltdowns
-Inability to understand nonverbal communications
-Obsession with fairness or balance
-Impulsivity
-Poor social awareness
-High emotionality
-General executive dysfunction
-Atypical response to stimulants
-Racing thoughts
-Tactile issues
-Discomfort with a lack of pattern or predictability
-Echolalia
-Easily bored, and finding boredom to be highly upsetting
-Difficulty understanding and following instructions
-Literal-mindedness
-Delays in linguistic development
-Auditory processing issues (lots of us keep subtitles on all the time, or rely on lip reading, and really hate phone calls!)
-Poor short term memoryThis is nowhere near an exhaustive list. The reason I’m making this post is so people realize that adhd is a developmental disability that affects every aspect of our lives, and is more than just distractibility or high energy. We’re not just poorly behaved, and in fact, we’re probably trying our best. So please be patient with us. Stop telling us that this isn’t real. Thank you.
printing this out for my kid and I to read together
30 Days of Devotion (Sigyn)
IX. Common mistakes about this deity
I don’t know if it’s a common mistake so much as a misconception that I’ve run into that Sigyn is weak and flies in the face of feminism. I’m honestly only aware of some people holding these ideas from the presence of responses and take downs on tumblr about how Sigyn isn’t weak and doesn’t go against feminism. She has the emotional strength to make the decision to walk into the Cave and start holding the bowl over Loki despite having lost at least one son (my personal mythology hasn’t settled definitively on whether Vali ran away on the same day that Narvi died or it was sometime afterwards). Sigyn makes the decision to return to Loki every time She empties the bowl, and it’s the decision making that is important. Feminism isn’t one-size-fits-all, and there needs to be the room for individuals to make their own choices. Sigyn chooses to stay by Loki.
Other than those points, I think the only ‘mistake’ someone may make is thinking that Sigyn will only come to a person in a certain way. People bring up Her Child and Bowl Holder aspects, but there are other ways that She can appear – various points in childhood, as a teen, as a bride, as a newlywed / wife, as a mother, bowl-holder, mother of mourning, post-Cave aspects that may include care-taking and/or Ragnarok inducing / contributing, etc. Sigyn is a Goddess, and She is mind-blowingly complex. She can come forward with varying degrees of personal relationships, or offer to help with grieving, or contribute to shadow work, or as a Dom*. The possibilities are large and varied, and She is more than a Bowl Holder or a Child.
Holding the Bowl 