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ofcourseitsmyhead:

Kristen Bell is one of the most recent stars to push past stigma and declare her depression and anxiety worth talking about.

And for that, I am thrilled.

It means that once again, there is another person, who seems so ‘normal,’ finally showcasing that, HELLO THERE, this is a real thing. And it knows no boundaries.

“Here’s the thing: For me, depression is not sadness. It’s not having a bad day and needing a hug. It gave me a complete and utter sense of isolation and loneliness. Its debilitation was all-consuming, and it shut down my mental circuit board. I felt worthless, like I had nothing to offer, like I was a failure. Now, after seeking help, I can see that those thoughts, of course, couldn’t have been more wrong. It’s important for me to be candid about this so people in a similar situation can realize that they are not worthless and that they do have something to offer. We all do.”

As a person who has had mental health issues for quite some time, diagnosed or not, I can basically agree 100% with this. And I wish, I wish, with all my might, that between her efforts and mine, and the efforts of all those other anxious or depressed souls out there, we can finally feel alive.

I want the anxious Plain Janes with no ‘big’ accomplishments to stand up with me, and say ‘I’m still here despite it all.’

I want the hard-working and depressed people to stand up with us, and declare ‘This isn’t shameful.’

I want my bipolar friends who fight internal demons to rally and shout ‘We’re people, too.’

I want my schizophrenic sisters and brothers to get together and yell from the rooftops that ‘We’re MORE than medication.’

Because we are.

We are MORE than this. We are MORE than medication, therapy, and doctor’s visits.

If you know a person in your life with a mental illness (I guarantee you do,) I want you to challenge yourself. Don’t get overwhelmed, but spend some time with them. Get to know their demons, and what they fight with every day. The things that make them struggle. The thoughts they have against their own selves.

I know from personal experience that just going to a counsellor doesn’t cut it. I need time to process my feelings, work through them, and count my victories. Sometimes that means someone points them out for me. Sometimes that means someone has to tell me over a dozen times a day that I am special. That I am okay. That I am loved, wanted, insert-positive-adjective-here. Sometimes that means that I need to just tell someone, anyone, that despite it all, it’s hard to live. I feel lonely. I feel afraid. I feel weak.

I can’t even hold back the tears coming down my face anymore. I’m so scared. But I’m doing this anyway, like I’ve done for the past year or more. (When did I start this, again?)

I am done hiding. I don’t want to hide anymore. If you still need space, though, take it. I’ll be a sounding board for anyone who’s struggling, because I’ve been there. I might not know how your story is going, but I will be a post to lean on if you need me.

We’re in this together, no matter how alone we feel.

hey did you know its almost schizophrenia spectrum awareness week (may 17-23)

toolassistedspeedrun:

(edited 22 oct 2015 to make the post easier to read)

i did my best to pretty this post up and cover everything but feel free to add or edit shit if you think i missed something

the szphrenia spectrum includes

  1. schizophrenia
    where you have some positive symptoms (shit like hallucinations, delusions, disordered thinking) and some negative symptoms (memory loss, lack of expression, lack of emotion, loss of motivation/pleasure and lots others) or catatonia. some szphrenics might have more psychotic symptoms, others more thought disorder symptoms, and still more can be mostly catatonic, but it can be a mix too

    just a quick tangent, catatonia is a kind of behaviour / motor abnormality and it can involve immobility, unresponsiveness, mutism, staying in uncomfortable positions for long periods of time, echolalia or echopraxia (copying movements), repetitive movements, and a lot more

  2. schizophreniform disorder
    pretty much the same except the symptoms onset way faster and havent lasted for more than a month. some people recover and others develop szphrenia from it anyway
  3. schizoaffective disorder
    when you meet criterion a for schizophrenia in the dsm-v, which is to say you have hallucinations or delusions plus negative symptoms, disorganized behaviour or catatonia, and also have mood episodes 
  4. cluster a personality disorders
    -schizoid
    disinclined to socializing and connecting with people. emotions are directed inward but arent really driven to share them intimately with anyone but an exceptional few for some. may have blunted affect or be apathetic

    -schizotypal
    unusual thought and speech, or odd experiences with / perceptions of reality. can have blunted affect. might prefer solitude and be suspicious of people. avoids having close friends and has social anxiety or paranoia. usually assign some greater meaning to coincidences or feel they are magic or psychic in a way (but not caused by “delusions” or a religion)

    -paranoid
    suspicious of other peoples motives. is hypervigilant, holds grudges, or is quick to react to perceived betrayal. usually are doubtful of whether people are really loyal to them and they read hidden meanings into things

some mythbusting and misc shit to know

  1. sch*zo is not a casual adjective, dont use it if youre not szphrenic
  2. be critical of stuff that uses psychosis- and szphrenic-coded tropes for laughs or an evil effect
    (a really common gimmick is someone talking out loud at voices in their head)
  3. we are not obligated to call our experiences hallucinations or delusions, whether or not were “delusional” isnt a reliable hallmark of our mental health
  4. a lot of us have mixed up speech and it can be really hard for us to talk. as long as you can understand us dont point it out and dont make fun of it
  5. (medication cw and doctors cw)
    dont tell us we should be on meds or seeing a doctor. antipsychotics are a fucking huge gray area with whether they actually help or hurt more and most doctors have a very stereotyped understanding of the szphrenia spectrum
    (end cw)
  6. dont force us out of our reality (“you dont actually have magic powers” “youre just anxious”)
  7. some of us get violent impulses and thats ok
  8. some of us are just straight up not into socializing dont try to “get us out of the house”
  9. sometimes we laugh or cry out of nowhere or are really blunt. sometimes we talk out loud to voices or say shit that doesnt make sense or mutter to ourselves or sit in weird positions. sometimes we do stereotypical things and its not weird or creepy

resources and other cool goodies

if you need me to clear anything up or are curious about something re: szphrenia spectrum my inbox is always open

tyvm for reading and please reblog to spread info about a spectrum of mental illnesses that are way too often just dust in the wind

side effects of being numb due to mental illness:

unicornexplorer:

adorkableberry:

  1. not crying for weeks and weeks on end til one day breaking down over something not actually worth getting upset for
  2. not being able to tell if your feelings for people are platonic or romantic or if you’re just lonely 
  3. instead of caring too much not caring at all about anything 
  4. not being able to process anything going on in your life and when you try your brain stalling out
  5. losing your train of thought every five seconds so when you try to have a conversation having to pause and remember what you were trying to say 
  6. word vomiting 
  7. mind ‘STATIC’

exactly. exactly

gnarlywals:

corduroy-jackalope:

The brain is an organ. Mental illnesses are illnesses of that organ. Brain scans show that there is a physical difference between a healthy brain and a sick brain. Telling someone “You’re not really sick. It’s all in your head.” is like telling someone with asthma “It’s not real, it’s all in your lungs.” The brain is an organ that can malfunction as much as any other organ.

PLEASE READ THIS OVER AND OVER AND OVER

rosalindrobertson:

fysw:

Carrie Fisher and Gary – Star Wars: The Force Awakens Premiere at Leicester Square on December 16, 2015 in London.

So, this is important. Carrie Fisher has an invisible illness and disability – severe mental illness – and she’s been really open about it. Open to the point where she has her service animal Gary out on the press tours.

Yeah, a service animal. Not a guide dog, a therapy dog. Fisher has almost died because of her illness – and the reason she could DO Star Wars is because she has accommodations that work for her.

Everyone is talking about how Gary has stolen the show – but he is *important*. He is working. He is what she needs to go out and do this shit.

Next time someone with a disability asks for you to do something simple to accommodate them I want you to think of this. This is Princess Leia and this is her accommodation for her illness.

roachpatrol:

@ teens because i’ve gotten a lot of asks along the lines of ‘i think i’ve got depression/anxiety/a personality disorder but my parents and teachers and counsellors just say it’s teen angst and won’t help and won’t get me to a therapist and i’m so tired and scared’. 

your primary emotional state should not be exhaustion, sadness, fear, or stress. seriously, even if you’re an adolescent. ‘teen angst’ is an awful dismissal of how emotional distress is a natural human reaction to the circumstances we force teens into: long work hours, few rewards, routine privacy invasion, unjust punishments, gruelingly unhealthy sleep schedules and food, and rigid prison-like social systems.

in addition to this, somewhere between half and three-fourths of mental illnesses show up before age 18. this leaves tons of people struggling for years to manage symptoms, alone, until they’re adults and it stops being so ‘normal’ for them to be miserable. or, you know, they treat themselves with drugs, abusive relationships, or suicide, and then everyone is like ‘why did this happen???’. 

you are not supposed to be in constant pain. you’re not even supposed to be in frequent pain. take your mental health seriously. 

chicken-coup:

#wearenotyourstrawman

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