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What if…

What if both stories of Baldr’s death were true…

What if Hod was the shy, quiet, blind god that began to feel like everyone’s “comforting” remarks about his disability were condescending. What if he thought that Baldr, perfect, beautiful Baldr, was the worst of the lot. What if he became jealous that Baldr had everything everyone thought he didn’t — a good arm, good aim, a good wife, and “sacrificed” to help out “poor” Hod. What if Nana had told him “if only you could see” before turning away and choosing Baldr.

What if he overheard Frigg tell an old hag about the mistletoe, and went out himself to find some. What if he bound a sword — Baldr’s own sword — in it, and threw it as hard as he could at his brother. 

What if Loki really was disgusted by Frigg’s enchantment, and left the games in protest. What if nobody believed that a blind man could throw, and pointed their fingers at Loki because he was the only one not there, and Hod’s “but it was truly me” were seen as “woah is me I murdered my wonderful brother” instead of “look at what I did! I killed my arrogant brother!”

What if Odin confronted Loki about it, and didn’t believe his denial. What if that was the last straw for Loki, and he left, breaking their bond as he did so. 

What if Vidar believed that Loki was the killer, and he waited around for Loki to show his face so his could fulfill his prophecy, and accidentally killed Hod.

What if Loki admitted to killing Baldr because “fuck it. It doesn’t matter what I say, everyone thinks I did it anyway.” What if there was a part of Odin that believed Loki didn’t really do it, and that’s why he bound him instead of killing him.

What if Loki waited so long to bring about Ragnarok because he refused to break the insides of his son. What if Angrboda went to search for Vali, and was banished for doing so before she found him, and the idea of her son alone and hurting and mad is what does it for Sigyn. What if she tears Loki’s bonds and sets him free.